Campus Diaries

 

The Campus Diaries is a safe and judgement free place where college students can submit their raw and honest experiences that pertain to their lives while in secondary education.   The Campus Diaries encourages students to anonymously submit their stories of silent and unspoken topics, allowing students to be heard while inspiring hope and compassion  – and bringing to light the awareness needed for mental health and wellness within the campus communities.

Please note: If you are a student in *crisis, contact your school’s counseling services or student health center. For after-hours, students anywhere can call the Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-8255, Mobile Crisis at 1-800-704-2651, 911, or go to the nearest hospital emergency room.

  • Dear Diary, I’m tired of pretending. Tired of pretending not just with other people but also with myself. I know I am not okay.  Fake it till you make it is not working anymore, I am tired.

  • Dear Diary, This past academic year has possibly been my favorite during my three years at UF. I made new friends, got a good job, and grew less dependent on my boyfriend. The good things have outweighed the bad but the bad has still been...

  • Dear Diary, I’m so burned out for this to only be my second year. I don’t feel like the same student I used to be and it upsets me a lot. I still do okay in classes, for the most part. My parents aren’t disappointed...

  • Dear Diary, I was sexually assaulted in my college dorm room early on in the spring semester of 2020. I swallowed it down, repressed it, refused to think of it until recently. I’ve finally had to accept counseling through my school’s Title IX office. I...

  • Dear Diary, I constantly feel overwhelmed with schoolwork and it seems like a never-ending list of things to do. When I do find the time to enjoy myself I always seem to be feeling guilty. It is drilled into my mind that I always need...

  • Dear Diary, I am about to graduate from MTSU and I am worried about finding a job in my field. Covid has made finding an internship very difficult. I was really pushing to get a foot in the door last semester. I have been applying...

  • Dear Diary, I am not sure what I am facing. Is this natural anxiety or health anxiety I should be worried about?  I feel all this emotion is a manifestation of these college changes, and maybe even my own unhealthy lifestyle. It’s college, right? So,...

  • Dear Diary, After getting out of a year-long, verbally abusive relationship, I decided to download Tinder (pre-Covid) when I returned to college at MTSU. It was fun at first. I was meeting wonderful people and having fun, with nothing serious expected on either end. It...

  • Dear Diary, I’ve never felt this overwhelmed in my entire life. I oftentimes catch myself just laying on my bed, staring up at the ceiling, hoping that something new and good will happen. It never does. This is not what college is supposed to look...

  • Dear Diary, This past year has been really hard between everything that has gone on especially the pandemic. I have been trying my best to follow all of the precautions only for people who I thought I respected to tell me that it doesn’t matter...

  • Dear Diary, For one of my classes, I was asked how to avoid the dreaded Freshmen 15. After thinking about the topic for some time, I began to understand that I could not offer anything that had not already been said. Even if I had,...

  • I was a freshman in Fall 2017. Now? I am graduating in May 2021. That’s 50ish days from now. Let me just tell you a little bit about my college experience, and how I have changed as a person. Like I said, I came to...

  • Dear Diary, So much change has happened this past year but little growth.

  • Dear Diary, When the year 2020 began and news of the pandemic began to arise among media outlets, I initially thought that this would be an event of little consequence, at least within my life. I want to say that I later learned how wrong...

  • Dear Diary, I have never struggled much in school before. This is my senior year and I thought my last semester would be laid back and a time to make some last memories. While I am only taking 12 hours, I have never had this...

  • Dear Diary, I am a non-traditional student, I am a US Army veteran, I am a wife, and I am a mother. I am currently a senior at MTSU studying Photography. It has been tough to be a parent, spouse, and a student full-time, then...

  • Dear Diary, Follow the yellow brick road they say. Well, I followed it… I completed my gen ed’s. I chose a major that I enjoyed. I picked the classes I wanted for the semester. I organized my schedule to fit my work/social life. I did...

  • Dear Diary, Each day of this semester has been a blur. Each day bleeds into the next and I have lost all sense of control in my life. The student I was in January of 2020 and the student I am now are two different...

  • Dear Diary, During COVID-19 attempts to stay “safer at home,” being mandated to work from home, and already attending classes online, I’ve come to realize I don’t actually like my home. It took over six months of working at the dining table and being in...

  • Dear Diary, I hate and love online classes; I originally took distance learning classes because of the need for work and life balance. It helps me with schedules but it doesn’t help with my social life. To be honest, I am a shy person and...

  • Dear Diary, I’m graduating next week!!! I am super excited, nervous, anxious, and all of the above lol. It’s been a long hard four years. I’ve lost a couple of friends and made some even better ones. I tell you nothing was worst than my...

  • Dear Diary, I am a senior in the College of Nursing, and I am struggling this semester. Online lectures are hard. The extra work is driving me insane. I have 3 regular exams, 3 national exams, and 4 final skill check offs within the next...

  • Dear Diary, I recently moved out in August for the first time. This has been hard being on my own and dealing with everything by myself and being alone most of the day. In September, a week after my birthday I had a late term...

  • Dear Diary, The feeling of being alone has been so prevalent in my life lately. I try to have hope. I try to smile. Sometimes darkness overcomes and engulfs me. Even though times are hard I will never give up. Sometimes it’s hard to keep...

  • Dear Diary, I am a senior at MTSU I’m majoring in computer information systems and analytics. I feel like there is such a huge weight on me to be one of the first people in my family to get a degree but also not to...

  • Dear Diary, I’ve held it together for so long. Between school and working two jobs, I’m tired. But I also feel selfish and unappreciative for complaining, because I’m blessed to have access to an education unlike many. I’m blessed for my parents. All at the...

  • Dear Diary, I’ve been contemplating about this for a while now, and I think it’s time for me to come out. For majority of my life I’ve kept this dark secret about being bisexual (well at least what I think is dark), and now I...

  • Dear Diary, When I was younger, I never appreciated the skin I was in. I grew up being teased about my complexion and those things really got to me. However, as I grew older, I started to realize that my beauty doesn’t necessarily have to...

  • Dear Diary, TW: disordered eating.  It just started happening during quarantine, I was home all the time and gained weight. I’ve never been happy with myself, even as a toddler. There was just no way for me to go to a gym so cutting down...

  • Dear Diary, It’s a time to heal. To hear those words from our first woman headed to the second highest office in the land created so many emotions inside me. For the first time I didn’t just hear, but I FELT was a unification of...

  • Dear Diary, School has been nothing less than a burden during this time. Balancing this pandemic, work, election season, and racial tensions while also being in school is mentally draining. No breaks, no consideration of the social climate. I’ve never taken online classes, and I...

  • Dear Diary, I finally have hope. The stress with this election and the horrific behavior from so many (on both sides) has almost been too much to me while I am trying so hard to keep my head above water with staying safe and away...

  • Dear Diary, I’ve been having anxiety attacks for a week now. Almost every day. I’ve not really kept track. Ever since Mel’s surgery Thursday. Last Thursday… was hell. Mel’s surgery took six or seven hours. It felt like forever. Of course it was the week...

  • This year has been… Hectic Ever-changing Laborious Painful Laden Endless Scary Stressful   This year, as said by so many media reports, political and popular figures, friends, and family has been “unprecedented.” No one knows which way is up, and which way is down. There...

  • Dear Diary, I am a surburban black woman.  I have a wonderful husband and two boys, ages 8 and 10.  I returned to school to show my sons no matter what age you are, you can be what you want to be. My husband and...

  • Dear Diary, As you all know it is election night and no telling what the outcome will be. I’m not the one to be too policital, but I am going to touch on this election a bit. It makes no sense that this election has...

  • Dear Diary, I’m really crashing. I’m broke. I’m failing classes. And I can’t seem to make myself do anything about it, no matter how hard I want to or how hard I try. I can barely get out of bed these days dealing with my...

  • Dear Diary, How do you feel wanted? How do you feel not alone in a house full of people? I’m so overwhelmed between school, work and taking kids to practices, but I still feel alone. I didn’t think I would be getting a divorce after...

  • Dear Diary, I’m lost I’m alone. I’m going thru a divorce working 60+ hours a week to do it by myself. I go to school and struggle to balance school and work. I come home to an empty house cause I’m not good enough for...

  • Dear Diary, This may be one of the worst years to start college. Beyond just the stress of classwork everyday there’s the stress from a global pandemic, which threatens to kill the people I care about. There’s the stress from nothing being done about global...

  • Dear Diary, Suffocated. That’s probably the best word I could use that describes the way I feel. I’m constantly trying to better myself and my future with getting work done and finding new opportunities to do on campus. Yet, it never feels enough. It never...

  • Dear Diary, When I first came to MTSU two years ago I had no idea what to expect, but extreme lonliness and isolation wasn’t one of them. I’ve always managed to make friends wherever I’ve gone, but MTSU was just a different story. I’d always...

  • Dear Diary, On Thursday March 12th, 2020, I was enjoying the end of my senior year. I felt pretty relaxed because I had a solid plan for college with some nice scholarships, and I was just having fun with friends and gliding through the end...

  • Dear Diary, Are you surprised that I’m bringing up sex? Yes? No? Hahaha whatever. I don’t care. The struggle is REAL and I’m gonna tell you all about it! Alright look, sex is a big part of college life. Shocker right? Hahahaha. Ok all jokes...

  • Dear Diary, Honestly, I am so tired. I have to juggle work, school, housework, and take care of my toddler. It is so overwhelming at times that I just want to leave somewhere and never come back. Lack of friends to talk to, I am...

  • Dear Diary, During the summer all I could think about was how much I wanted classes to begin, I had grown so bored of the monotony of quarantine and just wanted a hint of normalcy back in my life that returning to classwork and retuning...

  • Dear Diary, My pet rabbit died a month ago. I raised him from a baby and he was with me for 10 years, over half my life. I don’t know how to function without him. I cry almost everyday but at this point everyone just...

  • Dear Diary, My ex just contacted me (after telling me to stay out of his life) we’ve been going back and forth for 2 years now and he is yet again trying to ‘fix’ things and ‘help’ me. I don’t know what to do. I’m...

  • Dear Diary, It’s a ghost town here. Nuff said.

  • Dear Diary, Where did this numbness suddenly come from? I was doing so well: keeping a consistent workout schedule, staying ahead of my school work, having a pretty good body image. But, now, it all feels… empty. Workouts feel almost impossible to complete. Every assignment...

  • Dear Diary, I started school back in January for the first time in almost 11 years. I am 37 years old and a non traditional student. I had already received my A.A.S. from another college and I was anticipating the college experience to be somewhat...

  • Dear Diary, Today when I arrived for on campus I noticed lawn chairs grouped together on the Student Union lawn. As I stared at those chairs I envisioned people sitting, talking and laughing. I looked away quickly because I knew that NO such thing was...

  • Dear Diary, I finally moved out of my moms. I now live at my dads and it wasn’t an easy move. My mom provided me with enough anxiety to last a life time. I packed up my stuff last Friday and left, and I feel...

  • Dear Diary, I’m trying so hard to reach my goals and yet at every turn it seems like the universe is determined to stop me. I know myself. I know that the longer I am here, the more burned out I will get, so I...

  • Dear Diary, I try so hard to be the best I can possibly be. However, it always seems like i’m too short of something or not giving enough and i’m tired, but I stick through because God! God will never put me in a situation...

  • Dear Diary, So I am in a relationship with this guy, and it has been four months (so everything is still pretty new). At first, thing were going really good. We spent lot of time with each other, we traveled, and we even met each...

  • Dear Diary, You know who I am. I’m the guy who was everywhere on campus. I’m the guy who LITERALLY spoke with over 4,000 students in span of five months, listening to all their stories. I attended nearly all of the campus events and made...

  • Dear Diary, I may seem happy and that I have control over everything, but to be perfectly honest… I’m not. Although everything in my life is going in the direction I want it to, I feel like something is missing. Maybe myself? I truly don’t...

  • Dear Diary, Is there a difference between worrying about others and genuinely caring for them? Often being a black 6’3″ man in America I must be overly aware of my surroundings and unfortunately account for other people’s biases while simply trying to live my God...

  • Dear Diary, I may seem happy and that I have control over everything, but to be perfectly honest… I’m not. Although everything in my life is going in the direction I want it to, I feel like something is missing. Maybe myself? I truly don’t...

  • Dear Diary, I have a popular story that I’ve been posting for over three and a half years. People have been asking me to make printed copies and open an online store, and I have everything ready and in my room but… I’m just so...

  • Dear Diary, It is 8:30 on Sunday night. I am working on homework for the upcoming week. My 16-year-old is sitting beside me working on her school work, and Sadie, the pitbull is snoring softly behind me. The 12-year-old is in the next room trying...

  • Dear Diary, Sometimes it really feels like bad things come in waves, and the waves can easily become tsunamis. The pandemic has been hard. The Black Lives Movement has been beautiful and necessary and tragic and horrifying to keep up with. The election is a...

  • Dear Diary, In this time of returning back to school after twenty three years of being out and raising a family, I feel like I am barely keeping my head above water. Never in a million years did I think I would return to full...

  • Dear Diary, I know that this is a new transition for a lot of professors and students, but I feel like the professors aren’t really working with us. I’m not really learning, just making sure that I’m getting everything turned in by 11:59pm. I get...

  • Dear Diary, I thought this is what I needed, to be independent and on my own. I thought that was the definition of thriving that I needed, but I didn’t realize how much of an impact the pandemic would take on me. I thought spending...

  • Dear Diary, Ever since the beginning of this semester, I have not really talked to anyone. I don’t have any friends on campus, I have no roommate, and if someone isn’t in a group of friends they kinda just stay away from everyone. I get...

  • Dear Diary, l just be honest up front about this, this is not going to be sugar-coated or fluffed up, it’s just going to be what my life is like. I’ll preface this by saying that I’ve always had trouble with depression in my life...

  • Dear Diary, I came to MTSU with the thought that I would finally have all the time in the world to do my homework and get good grades while also having time for friends and church. I’ve quickly found out that I only seem to...

  • Dear Diary, I feel like I’m letting my family and myself down. I would be considered lucky, in times like these. I have a job that allows me to work from home, and I’m able to do a lot of my classes from home. But,...

  • Dear Diary, I feel like I am an imposter in my own field. so far, I’ve gotten this far by using tutors, studying with TAs and such and now that I’ve gotten into upper division courses I just have no clue where to go for...

  • Dear Diary, College is sad. Everything about it here is sad. the pandemic makes it worse. I’m stuck in my dorm and only go out to use the bathroom. I will not lie and say my mental health hasn’t taken a toll in this either....

  • Dear Diary, I have this professor. Let’s call him Dr. Blank. He is new to our university, he is teaching a class of people who are making a career transition. We are all transitioning from one career to another, elementary education. Well, classes started August...

  • Dear Diary, When quarantine first began in March, I knew it’d be bad for my depression. Anyone with depression knows isolation can be your best friend and your worst enemy. I’ve been dealing with anxiety and depression for most of my life. The most annoying...

  • Dear Diary, My life has been a shit show to say the least. I was homeless, my mother was drug addict, I didn’t know my father. I lost the only support system I ever had when I was 15 and I dated someone who was...

  • Dear Diary, You’re worth it. I know things are hard, but one day you’ll look back at your hard days and smile because of how much things have changed. Have a good fall semester ❤️  

  • Dear Diary, I have been so overwhelmed and stressed out and feeling extremely depressed here lately. I feel like I’m not good enough. I feel so confused about my job. I feel upset due to current situations that have occurred over the past few months,...

  • Dear Diary, I’m a adult now. I’m feeling like everyday is the same wake up do homework and sleep sometimes you forget to even eat. I now understand the saying ramen noddle becomes your best friend in college.Sometimes you forget what day your even on...

  • Dear Diary, Until the age of 7, my life was pretty normal. I had a beautiful vibrant family. My mother was a lovely stay-at-home Mom and my father was a Navy pilot and we traveled all over the country. I felt loved, cared for, and...

  • Dear Diary, At the beginning of this semester, I was ready for the online courses because I thought they would be like last semester. Unfortunately, I was wrong. This semester has been so stressful because of the workload and I guess because we are not...

  • Dear Diary, It gets hard to read after a while. Ya know when you’ve done way too much homework for one day and you have a couple of more questions to answer before you can wrap it up… but you just can’t do it. It’s...

  • Dear Diary, So, I would normally never do this but here we go. Going into this semester I knew things would be different to handle the COVID-19 Pandemic. But nothing could prepare any of us for this. I haven’t slept for more than an hour...

  • Dear Diary, If only the world could see my broken soul. If I had the courage to speak out and tell the ones around me how much I am hurting, how I’m drowning. School was my way out. College was meant to get my life...

  • Dear Diary, Sometimes I feel like I’m numb. It’s like I feel so many things at once that my brain short circuits and then I can’t feel anything at all. When I’m not numb, I’m overwhelmed with all the emotions I try not to allow...

  • Dear Diary Struggling with depression and anxiety is a new thing for me. Having other issues on top of that make life dull and scary sometimes. This year was hard. I never thought I would miss going to Target without a mask on. I never...

  • Dear Diary, I am a veteran and a non-traditional student. During my time as a student I have felt isolation and an inability to relate with my classmates, especially traditional students. I have had some truly bad days, like working 21 hours straight outside in...

  • Dear Diary, I am in a greek student organization and know friends who also like me are in greek life and one of the things you realize going through are that a majority of greek organizations break rules … often. The stigma was explained to...

  • Dear Diary, Honestly, I am so ready to graduate. I am tired of these online classes. I feel like I am given more work just because it is online. Papers on top of papers, discussion posts, readings, etc. I understand we have to have some...

  • Dear Diary, One of the ways I keep sane and fit is to swim laps. MTSU has an excellent aquatic facility but the powers that be have chosen to make an arbitrary decision to keep the pool closed. Pools around the country are open to...

  • Dear Diary, It’s hard for me to fully open up to people because of the trust issues I have. Being let down so many times by the people you love makes you not want to get close to anyone anymore. I’ve been struggling with trust...

  • Dear Diary,  I am so tired of classes being all online for me. I am ready to go back to campus. I miss the “normal” daily life of campus. I don’t know how long I can take this. This literally sucks. It seems like professors...

  • Dear Diary, Know that you are beautiful and know you’re worth. Don’t let other people’s words bring you down. Don’t ever feel like you don’t matter because you wear the crown. You are a Queen and don’t ever let anyone treat you like you’re not....

  • Dear Diary, So, there was once a teacher. No, don’t worry. This is not THAT kind of story about a teacher, so hang with me. Look, I know this is supposed to be a dear diary kind of entry, but I just want people to...

  • Dear Diary, Ever since COVID came into the picture and we had to quarantine at home, social distance, and move majority everything online, I have gained so much weight. I have gained more than 20 pounds, and honestly, my self esteem has dropped. I’ve been...

  • Dear Diary, Sometimes I feel so alone in this world. I feel like people always ignore me. I’m that person in the group chat whose message always gets overlooked. It sucks because it makes me not want to talk to anyone and to stop reaching...

  • Dear Diary, To the guy I still have feelings for: It hurts me that I still love you even after all you put me through. I don’t know what it is about you but I can’t seem to get enough of you. I feel like...

  • Dear Diary, Lately, I’ve been stressed out. Sometimes I find myself unable to think clearly because I have had so much on my plate. Having all my classes online doesn’t make it any better. I haven’t been outside unless I’m going straight to work. Other...

  • Dear Diary, With all online classes, I feel like some teachers don’t try their best to give good information. Also, lots of documents and assignments are not in order. I’m glad we got online classes for safety, but some professors don’t seem to take some...

  • Dear Diary, Over and over again, I spent my nights crying in sorrow, hoping that it will get better tomorrow. But yet when tomorrow comes I’m stuck going in a circle.  Some days I find myself with a free pass, but then I just revert...

  • Dear Diary, Although this is old news,  I would like to share this. I don’t know why this has been on my mind lately, but I am thinking about a past relationship that I had coming into college the first semester of my Freshman year....