Drained

Dear Diary,

I am mentally, physically, and emotionally drained. I feel like I can sleep the whole day away. I wish that I could take a break from everything and everybody, but I have no money to take a nice vacation. I pray every day to remain positive but lately, I’ve been thrown. I feel like I have nothing left inside of me but yet I cover up my pain. Every time people see me, I have a big smile across my face, but little do you know, I am suffering on the inside. I wish I could be replenished or something. I always seem to put others before myself. I don’t know if I can continue to be there for others because who is there for me? … This is my cry for help. I AM DRAINED I tell you but I don’t know how to express my feelings verbally. So I am writing this diary entry and maybe someone will understand. I wish I was put first instead of feeling like I am bugging. I wish I felt appreciated but I feel used. I wish I could pour my heart out, but then I would get taken for granted. I wish I could trust someone but people are steadily changing. I hate feeling alone but yet I feel this way every day on top of being drained. I need someone to check up on me instead of me pretending to be the “strong friend,” but I feel like when it is my turn to need someone to listen, nobody is there…

Posted by a student at Middle Tennessee State University