Happy Weight

Dear Diary,

Growing up I never had to worry about my weight. I was an athlete, so naturally, I was fit. I could eat anything I wanted to in the world without having to fear that I would gain any weight. I can definitely say that changed once I came to college. I wanted to strictly focus on school so I didn’t even attempt to play basketball at a collegiate level. As I adjusted to not being as active as I was in high school, my body adjusted as well. I gained weight slowly but surely as the weeks flew by. I wasn’t the fit girl that everyone once knew me as back home. It was a hard adjustment, and it has even made me extremely self-conscious at one point in my life. I didn’t want to eat. I thought that maybe if I ate less I would stop gaining weight, and my body would go back to how it used to be. I was making myself sick, I was always light headed and felt physically weak because I stopped eating as much. After nearly passing out around a group of close friends, I had to finally confess what I had been going through. I talked to them and told them that I didn’t like the way my body looked. They really helped me feel better about myself and helped me realize that I was being too hard on myself. My weight didn’t change who I was as a person and it didn’t change how anyone else treated me. I looked at myself a completely different way after that conversation I had with my close friends. I love the woman I see in the mirror now, and I finally don’t stress about a little weight gain every now and then.