Letting Others Down

Dear Diary,

I feel like I’m letting my family and myself down. I would be considered lucky, in times like these. I have a job that allows me to work from home, and I’m able to do a lot of my classes from home. But, I still can’t help the overwhelming anxiety and depression i’m having, getting worse now that I barely leave the house. I’m starting to lose time, and a whole day will pass without me being present. I feel like I’m constantly behind in classes. I moved down to part time at my job to help me out, and it made my mom angry. I think she’s afraid I’ll have to move back home again. Sometimes I’m afraid I’ll have to move back home again. I’ve tried to reach out for therapy, but the ones in network aren’t taking any new patients. It’s getting harder and harder to keep my head above water, and I don’t know how to tell someone without sounding like I’m being ungrateful.

Posted by a student at Middle Tennessee State University