Reflecting

Dear Diary,

TW: disordered eating.  It just started happening during quarantine, I was home all the time and gained weight. I’ve never been happy with myself, even as a toddler. There was just no way for me to go to a gym so cutting down on food seemed “rational”. I don’t want to say that completely because I know its bad. I eat and weigh enough right now that I don’t know if I even count, but I feel so guilty about eating outside of the limit or something that I can’t put a number on. I’m sure others feel this way, I just needed to vent anonymously even if I’m not sure I count.