The Ex

Dear Diary,

My ex just contacted me (after telling me to stay out of his life) we’ve been going back and forth for 2 years now and he is yet again trying to ‘fix’ things and ‘help’ me. I don’t know what to do. I’m scared and I don’t know what to trust him on. I want him out of my life but I also want him around. But when he’s around I can’t get in another relationship or even function right. He was my fist love but a friend has suggested the feelings were never that mutual. He claims that they were and he was genuine. Sometimes I feel like he doesn’t even treat me as a person. I wish I could help him because he’s asking for help to ‘work on himself’ but I’m worried he’s just doing that to get to me and get favors. Also I’ve tried telling him what he needs to work on many times before and he always relapses back. He doesn’t seem to comprehend how much he has hurt me.